How many hours has it been? I do not know how long I have been at the Boar's Tusk. Or how many bowls of wine. What does it matter? As long as I have the coin, it is no one's business.
Eleanor is talking to Gilbert again. She looks my way and ticks her head...God's blood! Gilbert is coming over--
Ah. Never mind. Gilbert has a good soul. He sat across from me and made as if to scold me. Instead, he nodded and said very quietly, "While Eleanor watches, I am supposed to admonish you that you have drunken too much. Nod at me as if I were telling you some sage advice." And so I nodded.
Gilbert stayed a while until Eleanor was satisfied and then he rose. "For the sake of the wife," he told me, "do finish up and go back to your home, Crispin."
I nodded as I filled the bowl again. He scowled at me and left the table. I watched him depart for the kitchens. Gilbert is my friend. My friend my friend. So is Eleanor but she is a woman. She doesn't understand like a man can.
The wine is sour in my mouth. Or is it merely my mouth. When I am here I can forget. Yet being here, I am reminded that I am here and cannot leave here even if I do leave.
I read that last sentence again and confounded myself.
I'm drunk. Must be. When nothing makes sense and is at once the most profound philosophy I have ever heard...then I must be drunken.
It is safe here. My haven. If Eleanor ceases to curse me with her scowl. Ha! I shall ignore her--God's blood! There goes the ink. No wait, I have managed to salvage most of it. It comes so dear. The parchment even dearer. Why do I waste the money? The money the money. It all concerns money i do not have nor can earn but what does it matter matter natter patter...
Geoffrey isn't the only one who can rhyme.
This is a vexxxing task, this murder. Who killed him who killed him and why kill him and where is my money money how i hate the sight of it
Jack. Jack's come to fetch me. I like Jack. He's a good boy. Good bouy Jack. He tries to yank me to my feet by I am still writing writing writing helps me think go home and think and sleep go home____________
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